Am alone. Do you know how it really feels when you're completely alone? When there's no one could help you when you break down into tears, when you're facing problems and theres no idea how you should solve it? I wish I was brave enough to tell you, I can't do this anymore.  Why does all my hardwork turn into nothing at this very last moment? Can I ask from God for more time? I dont want to fail again, I just wanna prove to myself that I can achieve my goal if am willing to. But what happen? Even before the war started, I already give up? Why after everything that I've done, I still cant get what I want? Why is it so hard? Why can't I overcome the fear and the emotions in me? Why do I always let the evil take control over me? What could I do now?